20080531

these eyes

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while i was making the rounds of blogs the other day, i came across pretty legit's post about glasses. my reaction was pretty much the same as it always is when i read about glasses: something along the lines of, "oh, okay, that's nice," as i move on to the next thing. it's not that i don't care about eyeglasses as a fashion accessory, but as someone who needs corrective lenses on a daily basis, i've always thought it was just too tedious and expensive to try and accommodate them to different outfits and looks. this is just one of several issues i've had and continue to have with optical lenses over a span of about seventeen years. i've settled into a sort of comfortable acceptance with my eyesight (or lack of it), but i think the time has come for me to embrace it.

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting my first brush with corrective lenses came at the age of three. i remember watching my mother peel carrots for dinner on an otherwise uneventful day. glancing down at me from time to time, my mother asked suddenly, "why are you squinting?" immediately relaxing my eyes, i replied quickly, "i'm not." naturally, she wasn't fooled and commented that she'd seen me doing this on several occasions and maybe it was time for me to get glasses. i protested vehemently, though i'm not sure what exactly made me so averse to them at such a young age. both my brothers and my father wore them (my mother refrained from wearing them frequently, despite her bad eyesight, until i was a few years older), and i'm sure i had come into contact with plenty of other people who wore them as well, but something in me said, in no uncertain terms, that glasses were not something that i wanted to start wearing. but without further ado, my mother promptly brought me to an eye doctor and i got my very first pair of glasses. i don't have any photographs on hand to regale you with, but i can assure you that they were round, thick, plastic, and atrocious (though i could think of a more than a few hipsters who would probably love to snag a similar pair these days). needless to say, i hated them.

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and why wouldn't i? with the exception of some recent tastemakers (chloe sevigny, luella bartley's "geeky and cartoonish" ss08 collection) and some older ones whom i wasn't exposed to until my teenage years (andy warhol, edith head), people in glasses generally don't get much love. sure, family matters pretty much revolved around steve urkel, but did anyone really want to be him? case in point: in the 90s, my brother often got compared to jaleel white, and it was practically the bane of his existence. unsurprisingly, he turns into stefan urquelle, smooth in all the ways that steve is not, minus the glasses. does claudia kishi not trump mallory pike in any and all circumstances (except maybe a spelling bee)? is there a glasses-wearing spice girl? on saved by the bell, screech was supposed to be a huge nerd, yet he was still distinguishable from the other, unable-to-hang-out-with-zack-morris-and-co.-nerds by his lack of glasses. one of the few exceptions to this trend was molly mcintire, of american girl fame. she was pretty ballin'. but it's not as if my elders really tried to dispel this misconception. when i switched eye doctors, the new one looked over my charts and records, peered at me and asked, "are you a good student?" nod. "a really good student?" shrug..nod. "i can tell. your eyesight is getting progressively worse. you shouldn't expect for it to improve without surgery. this is a pretty common problem with people who spend excessive amounts of time reading during childhood." thanks for the encouraging words.

Photobucket - Video and Image Hostingfor me, a new pair of glasses, once a year and every year, has been the pattern up until, well, now. i eventually switched from plastic frames to metal ones, and when i finally realized that my eyesight wasn't getting any better (unlike my brother, the lucky duck), i decided that i could get increasingly smaller lenses each time around, as if the smaller they got, the more likely they'd be to cease to exist. i started nagging my mom about contact lenses in middle school, but she thought the idea of putting a lens directly onto my eyeball was pretty gross (as did i, secretly) and vetoed the proposal yearly. towards the end of high school, some of the tacky orange-skinned girls, for some reason or other, started to wear bold, eye-catching frames from dolce&gabbana, gucci, and the like. some of them said they needed glasses all of a sudden and thought these frames were cool, while others admitted that they just thought it was a good way to flaunt their money and status within the dress code. in spite of myself, i admired their ability to wear glasses without any self-consciousness, but i still got my first pair of contact lenses in senior year and silently rejoiced over the fact that i'd at least partly be able to put my old glasses to rest. i debuted them on halloween 2005 with my flapper costume, satisfied that even if i couldn't mimic josephine baker's dance moves, i'd at least be like her with my outfit and lack of eyeglasses.

and then a funny thing happened. i kept wearing glasses. it was infinitely easier, especially for someone as lazy as me, to slip them on in the morning, instead of situating myself in front of a mirror to put in contacts one by one. i could see distances better with glasses compared to contacts, which helped when sitting in class attempting to understand the krebs cycle, and my eyes didn't get tired even if i stayed up all night wearing glasses. after years of enduring unrelenting nagging from me, my mother was incredulous, but the pattern persists. on special events and days that i feel like it, i'll put in contacts, but other than that, it's glasses. but.. it's the same pair of glasses, this year's glasses. i've stopped trying to make my frames shrink into nothingness, and i've got some bold plastic frames these days (no big logos, though - not my style). on the day before i left for college, i splurged and bought a pair of chanel frames, but no one will put prescription lenses into them without insurance. for chanel, i guess the insurance is worth it, but in the meantime, they're useless unless i'm wearing contacts underneath them. and those are my eyeglasses options. limited, no? but it's been limited by choice.. until now. i want to expand. perhaps if my prescription stayed stable, this wouldn't be such an issue, but since it's always changing, i'd be forever replacing lenses in a growing set of frames. so it's on to plan b: contacts under great frames.

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when i searched for vintage frames, i found that i'm not too fond of old women's styles.. the cat eyes and embellishments don't really sway me. but i love the bold, no-fuss look of men's eyeglasses from the fifties and sixties. i'm a really big fan of tortoiseshell frames, and the ones on the bottom are my absolute favorites. they combine that wayfarer shape with the two-tone look that i love so much on chloe sevigny. next comes the oh-so-necessary simple black frames, and this style "pays homage to the 1960s mod european film movement -- think marcello mastroianni and michael caine." and last but not least are glasses that conjure up some of my favorite images: hippies and john lennon. while i'd probably prefer these in a gunmetal color, i love their simultaneous simplicity and uniqueness.

and now, back to my regularly scheduled program of continuing to ruin my eyesight (and my intelligence quotient) by reading it had to be you: the gossip girl prequel. oh, the lazy days of summer..

20080529

picture-a-day 52908: i see a mansard roof through the trees

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"..and now the tops of buildings, i can see them too."

sometimes, i furrow my brow disapprovingly in the direction of certain girls, the ones whose outfits consist of nothing but urban outfitters pieces. sometimes, i am that girl. this time, i'm giving myself some leeway because half my wardrobe has been sent home ahead of me to new york. next time, there'll be no excuse.

the sunshine makes shadowy pictures, but i enjoy having it around.

sunnies: dad; tube top bra: american apparel; purse: vintage dooney&bourke
everything else: urban outfitters

20080528

picture-a-day 52808: this door was life. it was air.

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i feel like francie nolan or sara smolinsky in this bare-bones, broom closet of a room i'm staying in for temporary housing. during work, i suppose it's only fitting then that i spend the day cleaning dorm rooms from floor to ceiling, cinderella-style. i feel like donning a drab brown housedress with flat shoes and an apron, but the dress code says otherwise. still the weather is gorgeous, and that makes all the difference.

20080523

coming clean

they say the first step to dealing with addiction is admitting it, so i'll just be open about it: i'm addicted to black. nearly everyone i know is aware of it. they point it out and tell me i ought to make a change, and i really intend to every time, but then i look at my wardrobe every month or so, and the amount of black is simply overwhelming. different shades, textures, and prints, but always, always black. case in point:

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flagrantly flouting my academic responsibilities, i decided to go shopping in the square yesterday with my blockmate sarah. i've compiled a comprehensive list of things i need for paris, in terms of clothes and accessories, and it was my first chance to knock some items off of the list. when i bought the kill city salt and pepper jeans from hootenanny's, my companion agreed that they were very necessary. we talked each other through all of our purchases at urban outfitters, and while we were equally approving of each other's purchases (i'm so into the feather headband she bought), she noted that my shoes, headband, and sweater vest were all black, something i promised to rectify at american apparel. but the shiny black ruched tube bra that i walked out with only reaffirmed my dependency. in a last-ditch attempt to redeem myself, i bought a gold and black bracelet at oona's that reminds me of my dad's old and broken gold watch that i enjoyed wearing so much last summer, but the damage had already been done.

i really do want to step out of the realm of black (sometimes), but how can i leave it alone? it's the color of simplicity, rebellion, and timeless cocktail dresses.. a color i was initially drawn to because it felt safe, and a color i stuck with because i ended up loving it. i never really identified with people who can say that something is "their" color, only because i never realized that mine had been with me all along. neons are now and florals are fresh, but at the end of the day (and the season), i'll be pretty in black.



in other news, jess has a new blog! her first post seems to be almost written for me, considering how i'm going crazy over getting ready for my upcoming trip, and it's worth a read. be sure to give it a looksee.

picture-a-day: 52308: rose-colored glasses, ivory tower


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"when you come down from your ivory tower
you will see how it really must be to be like me, to see like me, to feel like me.."

20080522

freebird

i'm done i'm done i'm done i can resume my life, this blog, normal sleeping and eating cycles, smiling, MY LIFE wow finally finally done

20080518

lazy sunday

[6:22 PM]
me :: hey
she :: omg hey!! 25 hours and 38 minutes!!
me :: lol brb

[6:30 PM]
me :: hi there
she :: im looking for more blair waldorf clothes! =]

i knew jess would enjoy gossip girl, but i'm afraid i've created a monster..

20080512

"maybe he's right."

"maybe there is something the matter with me.. i just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad."
-ariel

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i just finished my written french final, so after an oral exam and finals in science and studies of women, gender and sexuality, for all intents and purposes, summer has finally begun. though i'm reluctant to harbor delusions of grandeur, i'm fairly positive that this summer is sure to be my best yet. my grant was finally approved a few days ago, so i can now say, without a doubt, that i will be turning twenty years old in paris. "a dream come true" doesn't even begin to describe this prospect. in the days leading up to and following my month in france, i'll be at home in new york with spending time with a great mix of friends from home and school. i love summer in new york city so much that i almost wish that i could go abroad in the fall, but i'll be vigorously making up for lost time while i'm there. i'll be working at a day camp where i've been employed for the past three years, and i'm excited to see how much my kids have grown and to see some new faces, as well. but at this very moment, the place that i'm absolutely dying to go to is walt disney world, that other place were dreams come true, though i couldn't tell you why.

Photobucket - Video and Image Hostingactually, i can tell you why: i'm a disney addict. it's kind of a problem. almost every summer, i simply pull the birthday card, declaring that there's nothing else that i want more than to go to disney world, and come july, my family is standing in front of cinderella's castle, for a third, fourth, fifth, seventh, and ninth time. i've actually lost count of how many times i've been there, though i'm sure the number hovers somewhere below my age. in my senior year of high school, i decided that it was necessary for my scholars science class to take a trip to disney world, even though the program had never even taken a trip to six flags before. i researched the options and found that disney offers programs for youth groups, including science classes. i wrote a proposal and pled my case to the school principal. luckily for me, sister antonia was a disney fanatic, as well. she said that we could go, as long as she came along as a chaperone. since my parents will rarely go to the parks anymore (i'm their third child, and i'm sure they'd had their fill of mickey long before i came along and made a hobby of it), i've gotten creative and recruited all kinds of new companions to share the experience with me, including, but not limited to, boyfriends, friends, and extended family members.

i think half of the appeal is the totally immersive quality of the place. you can love music or fashion and lose yourself at a concert or a particular boutique, but you can lose yourself literally for a week at disney world, submerged in all things happy and bright, and actually not run out of things to do. i think the other half of the appeal belongs to the admirable amount of attention paid to details and the seamless construction and incorporation of themes. when there's a themed party going on at school, i usually take it to the extreme for the sake of authenticity. it's only natural that when i go on vacation, i want something more caricatured than real (this is not to say that i prefer the france pavilion in epcot to paris itself, but rather, i prefer disney world's africa to busch gardens' africa, since it'll be a long time before i actually make it to the real continent.). other fringe benefits include the brief conversations that you have with friendly strangers while waiting on line for rides, hearing the multitude of languages spoken by international visitors, and seeing the looks of sheer joy on children's faces. but of course, this obsession of mine isn't limited to disney world itself. it's the movies, the songs, the characters, and even the channel. embarrassingly enough, i only got the disney channel in high school, but this didn't stop me from becoming an avid viewer. but who hasn't identified with one of the disney princesses or sung along with the songs at some point in their lives? the classic disney movies were contemporary takes on classic fairy tales at the time, but their interpretations capture something that's allowed them to crystallize and become classics in their own right. but enough with the gushing, the point of all this is, whether or not i get to disney world this summer (though not for lack of trying), i'm surely going to channel disney women with my summer wardrobe. cue the collages..

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minerva 'minnie' mouse has been epitomizing girliness since 1928. though we know her most for frilly dresses, hair bows and bright shoes, she's transitioned from flapper to flamenco dancer to movie starlet and eighties mall rat with ease. still, nothing can keep her away from her classically feminine trademark outfits. zac posen acknowledged minnie's iconic status with his models' hair styles on the f/w08 runway, but there are plenty of spring runway looks that exude a minnie-esque feel, like a floaty blue and green polka-dotted dress from carolina herrera. if there's one thing that minnie never strays far from, it's a simple solid-colored pump with no frills. no architectural or misplaced heels here: a classic satiny miu miu pump in a bright pink hue will do the trick. and for those who don't think that hair bows can be pulled off, see selina from flying saucer.

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i decided a while ago that belle was my favorite princess, for the simple fact that she actually likes to read. she also doesn't have a problem yelling at her hot-tempered love interest. but what i can't quite figure out is that even though she sings, "there must be more than this provincial life," she settles down in a castle in a relatively provincial area with a prince right after her first real adventure ends. thus, in interpreting belle's style for spring, i've given her the edge i believe she rightfully deserves, while maintaining her simple and minimalist aesthetic: billowy dresses in her best colors, blue and yellow, from lanvin, and a liberty floral print dress from luella, so that she can embrace her affinity for flowers without endangering her lover's life. plus, the tiny florals always make me think of nerdy, bookish girls who could spend days at the library. shedding those positively provincial flats, yellow bruno frisoni sandals keep things interesting, and some wolfish earrings from wendy brandes keep the beast close to her heart always.

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appropriating jasmine's style for spring/summer is not a task for the faint of heart, but ever since i dressed up as her in kindergarten due to the fact that she and i share a (middle) name, she's been one of my favorite disney ladies. as a headstrong young woman sick of palace life, she heads to the streets, only to find that she doesn't quite blend in. therefore, looks straight off the runway won't quite cut it, but plain garments won't work either. maybe a black velvet dress with a sequined tiger (to remember rajah, of course) from nasty gal vintage would do the trick? hammer pants are a must, and though marc jacobs showed jeweled headbands on the ss07 runway, blair waldorf and jasmine wannabes (read: me) everywhere are doing their best to keep them alive.

naturally, this is getting a little out of hand, so i'll end this post here, but i have a feeling a second installation of this is soon to come. until then, i'll be desperately prowling ebay for some disney-inspired pieces.

p.s.: much pandora love if you can spot the hidden mickey in this post!!

20080511

back on the radar

sometimes things just don't work out the way you imagine they will. in 1998 and 1999, i fell hard for all of the usual teenybopper fare: britney spears, christina aguilera, 'n sync, backstreet boys, b*witched, 5ive, etc. etc. of the bigger names on that list, most are somewhat aware of where they are now, whether they're out of the public eye, married with children, a successful solo act, or finding success in other endeavors. i would say that britney spears trajectory over the past ten years has been the most shocking, for sure. shaved head, children forcibly removed from her custody, terrible wardrobe choices. i remember buying her first album and scanning every picture of the cd booklet, making a mental note to procure appropriately innocent, sexy, yet sporty garments like hers, and now..? well, i don't even make notes to not dress like her, because i'm pretty positive that things will never get that bad.

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but sometimes someone who you thought had faded into obscurity can surprise you. in 1996, i fell in love with robyn. my childhood friend kristen and i were like the resident music aficionados of the third grade, and we decided that her short haircut, understated style, and slightly r&b vocals were simply perfect. we sang her songs at every chance we got, and scoured mtv for her videos in the afternoons. but then after a couple of singles, i lost track of her, though i still have her on relatively heavy rotation on itunes. but a little while ago, i happened to be searching for her old videos on youtube, and came across some new stuff of hers. a subsequent wikipedia search revealed that the girl has kept herself busy over the years. her sound has gone electro-pop, and her look has gotten even more interesting. she's maintained the short blond hair, but now it's shaved on one side. she reminds me of a girl whose blog i would be obsessed with for her incorporation of wow factor into simple outfits. well-played, robyn, well-played.

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edit: robyn in the may 12 post on stylesightings.

20080510

you're it

i was tagged by the lovely ladies at a side order of style a little while ago, but it totally slipped my mind until now. and so, without further ado (and before i forget again),

six quirks - the rules:
1. link the person who tagged you.
2. mention the rules in your blog.
3. tell about six unspectacular quirks of yours (just six?).
4. tag six following bloggers by linking them.
5. leave a comment on each of the tagged bloggers' blogs letting them know they've been tagged.

1. as anyone who reads this blog can tell, i have something of a disdain for uppercase letters, particularly when typing. i'm not sure why, there's something about them popping up after periods and whenever people use the word 'i' and proper nouns, it's downright incongruous. a string of lowercase letters just strikes me as more appealing and even calmer, if you will. all caps are acceptable for a word or sentence or two, but after that, it just seems alarming and urgent.

2. if there's one thing that everyone i know simply must comment on at some point, with varying degrees of politeness, it's my eating habits. first off, no condiments: ketchup, mayonnaise, mustard, salad dressing, sauce of any kind.. the idea of placing a semi- to completely wet substance on top of my food and consuming it just doesn't sit well with it. for me, there's beverages, there's food, and no other middle ground. condiments need not apply. and then there's the very limited amount of foods that i actually like to eat: cucumbers, tomatoes, french fries, turkey burgers, cvs brand beach rings, sour cream & onion pringles.. and that's about it. i'm working on expanding my horizons.

3. and as for my drinking habits, i don't. alcohol, anyway. for which i get no end to the confused stares from my fellow drunken classmates.

4. though i think i had a moderately normal childhood, i somehow missed the climbing trees and riding bikes parts. as in i have never/don't know how to do either of these things. people never cease to be appalled by these tidbits.

5. going off on the childhood thing, i did preschool twice. because i was already reading at three, my mom enrolled me early, but when the year was over, the principal said that no kindergarten would take me until i turned five, so i did a second year. to say that i was a bored little student is an understatement, but it all worked out. i was quite fond of the class of 2006, and i'm enjoying my time with this class of 2010.

6. i like to exercise, but i hate to sweat, so every now and then i'll work out in the shower. i'm not kidding. exercise + shower - sweat = a good idea, right? is this logic flawed? oh, and to clarify, our shower this year is absolutely massive since we live in a handicap accessible room. i might have to give up this habit next year.

i considered making a collage for this, but i'm lazy and it's unnecessary. and as for tagging, i hate to be a rule-breaker, but i'm just going to make this an open invitation to any bloggers out there who feel so inclined to share their quirks, yeah? yeah.

20080507

the art of dressing

dear dress,

how are you? i hope you like your new home. everywhere you look, the necessity of florals for spring is being shouted from the rooftops. but i can't help but always thinking about miranda priestly's scathing assessment of a seemingly obvious seasonal fashion trend:

poor unassuming magazine staff member: well, they're showing a lot of florals right now, so i was thinking -
miranda priestly: florals? for spring? groundbreaking.

this isn't to say that liberty florals a la luella aren't lovely, and that i don't want to try them out, but i wanted to make my first spring '08 floral experience something.. different.

and then there was you. hanging on the 1960s rack at history one fine day, with a reasonably priced $38 price tag, i had to have you. the caption on the back of the tag sealed the deal:

"She was so struck by the way Paco Rabanne's sleek, sexy dresses could spice it up for Audrey Hepburn in Two for the Road. Maybe this little number - a real departure from her day-to-day - would be just the thing for her big night out."


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paco rabanne? audrey hepburn? two for the road? i knew it was fate. but it seemed it wasn't meant to be. in the fitting room, i learned that your lining was absolutely wrecked, torn to pieces, and i couldn't bring myself to pay full price and then shell out the extra time, effort, and money necessary to make you wearable. i left the store a little broken up and downtrodden.

but i couldn't stop thinking about you, and i called a few days later to inquire after you. was there any chance that a dress in your condition might be marked down? the woman on the phone already knew exactly what dress i was talking about, and it had just been marked down that day. i dropped everything and trekked back to the store. our reunion was short but sweet: you had to be repaired and it was going to take five days at the tailor.

and now, here we are together at last. as soon as the weather permits, or maybe even before, you and i are stepping out. you undoubtedly fall into the category of florals, but you make it seem fresh and new, with wide brushstrokes and eye-opening colors.. a simultaneously childish and poignant, but truly innovative take on the trend. you, my dear, pop.

yours,
roxanne

wait a minute, mr. postman

when i was younger, i absolutely loved getting mail. and why wouldn't i? highlights and american girl magazine, party invitations and birthday cards - what's not to love. my mother warned me that one day, the experience might turn sour for me. eighth grade brought a subscription to seventeen and then beginning in freshman year of high school, a tidal wave of college letters came down on my house, and i never wanted to resurface. my high school years with the pinnacle of my love affair with mail. i always had at least five or six letters to come home to, filled with kind words and new possibilities. i decided my mother must have been mistaken.

i would say it was around the time that i got accepted into my colleges that things started to take a turn. now there were deadlines and responsibilities and i wanted nothing to do with it. now in my second year of college, i dread going to my mailbox, because aside from that fine day once a month when my nylon or vogue shows up, it's nothing but bank statements, bills, and other collegiate nonsense that i could care less about. the disease has spread, too. my e-mail is just as bad, and i dread checking it each day.

i'm turning it around, though.

contactPandorasCloset@gmail.com

use it. contact me. help me recapture my love for correspondence. say anything, say everything. i'll write back. promise.

sincerely,

20080502

picture-a-day 50208: nothing special

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our own back door, porch, tree, and a little petal-strewn trail leading up to our humble abode. plus a kitchen, cavernous bathroom, massive common room, and spacious single bedrooms inside. i think my housing situation has peaked at sophomore year.


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my long-hated high school uniform button-down gets daily wear in college. oh, the irony.

it will be put to use for a party tonight. nerd-themed. because that's what harvard needs.

just kidding.